Today was the day we went seriously and meticulously over our budget.
It makes me look like this looking at all the excel spread sheets and all those pesky numbers:
Today Lily got into the dream preschool we were hoping for...but for the three-day-a-week program...which was over budget. I kind of cried a little, because I knew we just could. not. do. it.
But it feels good, doing the right thing, living with in our (little) means, doesn't mean it's not hard though. Know what I mean?
I have been thinking a lot today about the stuff I want to get/ get done, like actually make the girls room look like a non-disaster room, and having chairs at our kitchen table (yup, we sit on a cooler, storage bins, and a few folding chairs), how I want to decorate our home a little bit. But ya know what? All those things can actually wait. It can be frustrating, especially when you get all stupid and compare your self to others, its not bad to want stuff, but it is bad when it takes up the majority of your thoughts. Like today, for me.
Some day, in the relatively near future, I'll show you pictures of our sweet garage sale chairs I plan on re-doing, and the bedding I plan on sewing for my girls, the dressers I want find and repaint for the girls clothes, the toy boxes I want to make, and the paintings I want to paint and frame on my walls, and maybe even get a tv one day (??!!). But, not today, and that's ok. It is a way better feeling, living they way you should be, rather than looking the way you "should" be.