Chad and I have always said we will have three kids,
and after that, if we want more, we can adopt.
So now we have three.
And we think we are done, at least for now.
And I have to say, I am so happy.
This has been on my mind for months, and months. And months. I was thinking about it all the time, should we have more? Should we be done? What does God want me to do? Is there some other person in heaven waiting to come to my family?
For a while I said we'd have another and then I would find myself getting so anxious about that, and have a "stupor of thought, if you will.
We prayed about it, and every time I prayed I would feel the answer: this is completely my decision.
Um, ever got an answer to like that? I was kinda not a fan, I mean, Heavenly Father can't you just give me a yes or no? Dang this whole agency thing!
Chad was completely supportive, he would love to have another baby, and he would love to have just our three girls, he also felt like this really was my decision.
So after really searching my heart, and sharing my thoughts, I made the decision, that we will be done.
Ever since then, I feel so much lighter.
I find myself just enjoying my kids so much more.
I mean, I have always enjoyed them, but I feel like I just can't get enough of Maggie's thighs, or Eden's hilarious run, or Lily's theories on life. I find myself so excited for our future, when we we all grow old-er together. Family trips to the beach, long back packing trips, you know, stuff like that.
It's kinda weird for me to be sharing something like this on a blog, but then not really if you know me/read my blog...I'm rather an open book aren't I? I just feel it was a huge decision, that has really changed my outlook on my future for the better, and wanted to record that.